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Thursday, 07 July 2011

  • I'm lost. And paranoid. I feel sick to my stomach. I wanna scream.

    Wanna scream at the top of m lungs scream your name like there's no tomorrow. Curse your name until the end of time

    I want to consume large amounts of alcohol.

    I want to smoke pounds upon pounds of weed.

    But above all else. The one thing I want to do more than anything else at the moment?

    I want to get rid of this pain. This thing they call heartache. Is it possible to die from
    heartache?! Yes, I think it's very possible to die from heartache. I want and I hope that you can feel even the slightest bit of what I'm feeling. I want you to be as confused and as lost as I am right now. Do you feel that? Do you feel all the pain I'm going through. No you don't. Because you have "bigger and better" things to feel for. I honestly don't know what to believe anymore.

    I just need some fucking closure.

    Is that too hard to ask for?

Tuesday, 05 July 2011

  • I was should have been kissing you tonight...

    Under the fireworks and cloudless sky.

    I just can't believe it had to end already. I knew it was coming, I had just always hoped it wouldn't have happened till before you left. You've changed me so so much in the past 8 months. More than anyone ever has. My outlook on life, the way I do things, the way I think/care for people. I hate that we ended on a bad note. Two weeks without any sort of communication was not the way to go! You turned into my best friend in a matter of months. There's nothing more that I've wanted to do right now than to cry. But i can't. Because I wanna be your best friend later in this story of ours. I know this is for the best for the both of us.

    I fucking miss you so much.

    God help me in this journey to recovery.

Thursday, 13 January 2011

  • Currently
    From First to Last
    By From First to Last
    see related

    If I wasn't such a pessimist, this chapter would have played out differently.

    Need a MAJOR ego boost right now. I've come to the conclusion that I pretty much am not satisfied with my life. I'm still in the same spot I was a year ago, and definitely the same place I was for the past 16 years of my life. I wanna be able to miss home, but when you live here it totally blows. I love my mom to death, I love my family but seriously sometimes I just wanna pack up and leave. But then, where will I go? I have no clue where to go, much less what I really wanna do with my life. There's all these ideas that just run through my head and all these different things I wanna do! And that's why this sucks. GOING BACK to what I said: " I don't know what I want, where I want to go, much less what I really want to do with my life."


    FML.

Thursday, 14 October 2010

  • Yeah…I’m a libra but I Also have a temper.

    Hello friend. I’ve missed you. I’m glad you’ve finally showed up after all these months. I remember back to the last time I met with you: if my mind serves me correctly, we didn’t leave on very good terms. Still, I accept you with open arms today to see what you have in store for me. OH! But, what is this??? You already have a present for me? You really shouldn’t have, you know I’m terrible at accepting gifts! I hope I like it-I would hate to leave on bad terms again. Ohoho! I see you’re still up to your no good part of life. This is why I didn’t want anything to do with you last time. You always wrap me up ensuring my safety yet here we stand today with yet another trick you played on me. This is why most people don’t like to stay close to you. It’s hard to trust you.

    Oh Love. I can’t believe the things you do and things I do for you.

    “After one more day of wishing you could just crawl under a rock and disappear — not because you’re ashamed of yourself, but more because you just don’t want to deale with a certain person’s nonsense any longer — you’ll be ready to come out. Big time. You’ll be so ready to come out that you’ll be unwilling to hide anything you’re feeling. Anything at all. So heaven help anyone who tries to stifle you. You may be a Libra, but you do have a temper.”

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